Just celebrated my 3rd year anniversary with Azim exactly a week ago. We celebrated it the way we've always preferred: low key. So lucky, so blessed. He doesn't have a lot - he can't offer me the world, no model looks, no title. What he can give me is his time, effort and himself. I hope you have a man that's willing to give you the same.
I couldn't afford to get him a gift or plan a surprise like I always have. So I did what I'm good at (kind of), which is write. Sent him an e-mail, at midnight, 25/11/2012, 12:19AM.
"Things I Hate About You
I hate it when you’re always late to pick me up
I hate it when you don’t have the sense of urgency
I hate it when you won’t allow me to sing while I eat
I hate it when you don’t tell me what you think
I hate that you put football first, even worse when you hate Torres
I hate the fact that your skinny, cause you make me feel fat
I hate when you don’t come to see me, cause it hurts me to miss you
I hate the fact that I can’t hate you cause I know it’s easier to get hurt that way…
But you never did. You’ve never hurt me in any way other than the fact that you make me miss you. I’ve always wished I met someone who can buy me jewelry or be top of his class. My dream guy consisted of someone who can take me on a holiday, smart and rich. But after meeting you, it didn’t matter anymore because you’re better than a dream – you’re my reality.I’ve changed so much ever since I knew you. You make me see life in a whole new light. You challenge me to be a better person and everyday I can feel myself changing for the better. I stopped cursing, my level of patience is higher, I’ve learnt how to empathize more and most importantly I’ve learnt how to love properly. You taught me how to be grateful and humble. I fell in love with how down to earth and kind you are. Never raising your voice and never showing your ego. We skip all the drama other couples have. Always making our own way, never bothered with others.
Baby, you’ve changed me so much and I never thought I could be the girl I am today. Never thought I’d stay in a relationship this long. You make me want ‘forever’ with you. God forbid, if we ever part ways, know that I’ve always and will always love you. What we have is now and now is us together. I love you with love and nothing else. Some people look for love and they’re looking for it in all the wrong places – appearances, lust and wealth. I pray that may they be blessed with the same happiness that we have and let them realize that at the end of the day, true love is not about all those things, it’s about how you treat each other and the sincerity of feelings that one has for the other. You make me realize that, Sayang. I want us to grow together and develop into good and kind human beings, following the correct path to Allah SWT. Let us be each other’s witness in life. Let’s see how far and great we grow up to be.
I love you, baby. Always. 3 years and I’m still head over heels. And I want to feel this way with you for as long as I can. 3 years and we’re still steadfast. Let’s make it that way for the years to come.
Anbreen, your love"
Cheesy, I know. But it's the only way I know how to be.