For once, I'd like someone to notice my absence. To just ask me what's wrong. To be enthusiastic when I'm around. To make me feel that I matter, genuinely. I know I'm not easy to be around with. I don't listen properly to what others are saying. Standing tough and protecting my feelings doesn't mean I don't know what it feels like being hurt or sad. I've lost so much already. I'm gonna lose more and I don't doubt that.
I just want to be remembered. The thought. To matter.