I am under the illusion that I can't get anything done nowadays. I feel sick, I loathe the thought of getting sick and somethings are better than getting sick you know? Truth out, I'm scared. The thought of turning into someone I'd rather not be freaks me to death. The thought of getting bored of something I love so much makes me want to stop loving. And the thought of dying, well let's just say that sometimes I wish that I'm gone before I could commit anymore sins. Trying to figure out something that you already know is resolute is like banging your face against the wall. You're bruised, you bleed but still you can't stop. It's things like this that makes a person go insane. What am I talking about. Better go eat.